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(C) Ronald E. Madsen, Jr., October 3, 2010 – All Rights Reserved
When I
was 15, I owned a single-channel audio amplifier that had been made in 1956 by
Electronic Instrument Company (EICO). My father and I bought the used amplifier
from a stereo shop. I used it to listen to music on a home-made system. The
amplifier included a high-voltage power supply that drove the final-stage
vacuum tubes.
One
afternoon, I decided I would try to correct an internal feedback problem in the
amplifier. I unplugged the AC power cord, and cautiously removed the base plate
from the five-sided box chassis, exposing the hand-wired electronics within.
I had
been warned by my father and by numerous authors that there were dangerously
high voltages that could still be present in the circuitry of the amplifier, even
after pulling the AC plug. Electrical energy could easily be retained in the
capacitors used to create the DC power supply for the vacuum tubes.
“I know
all about this,” I thought. I methodically went through the circuits and
shorted out all the high voltages with a wire. I made sure that each attempt to
short out a supply voltage resulted in a blue spark and a loud snap sound.
After a few seconds, I knew I had eliminated the threat posed by the invisible
stored energy. I was sure it was safe to proceed.
I found
myself sitting on the concrete floor, legs outstretched, with my back pressed
hard against the front of a dented furnace. I ached all over, as if I had
suddenly played football in the rain for a week straight. The brown, wheeled
desk chair I had been sitting on was now upside down in the center of the room.
I could smell a strong, unhappy odor of burnt skin. That was me. I had been
burned. I had been electrically shocked. The amplifier’s most dangerous power
supply capacitor had sent a brief but very large electric current into one of
my hands and out the other, visiting important, invisible things, such as my
heart, along the way.
One
moment, I was at my work bench. The next conscious instant, I was at the
opposite side of the room. I sat there on the floor, marveling at my new
perspective, contemplating the burning smell, not remembering my evident flight
across the room, realizing that I could be dead. What if I were found by my
parents in such condition? Very slowly, I stood up.
All my
good intentions and attempts at caution did not win me any special treatment
from Mother Nature’s physics department. Instead, Mother Nature ordered her
physics department to send me a remarkably powerful and extremely memorable
message. Here are the words I believe She said to me:
“You
were sure. But you were wrong. There was something you overlooked before you
took that step; something hidden, unobserved, misunderstood – a
450-volt-something. My laws are unchanging, and for justice, and to be
fair to everyone, I cannot make any exceptions. A few more microseconds, a few
more milliamperes, and your heart would be ruined – you would be on your way
back home to your Creator. But not today. Learn, study, and remember. Please.”
As a
teenager, I believed that Mother Nature had a few other departments, including
one for morality. The facts of my own life and the lives of other people seem
to line up with this notion. I have seen the greatest things accomplished
through deep understanding of principles not visible to the eye, yet very clear
to the disciplined mind and soul. I have observed burns and painful shocks of a
non-electrical nature. Some have brought me to tears, over and over.
My father gave me many things to explore when I was young. They were very real, and they were very powerful. Some were dangerous. All of them helped me find freedom and success as nothing else could. In a fool’s instant, one nearly killed me. Dad said, “You can make any choice you want, but first, know and consider the consequences.” Thanks, Dad, for all the real and true things you taught me. I know what love is.
“Each to his own way, I’ll go mine.
Best of luck in what you find.
But for your own sake, remember times
we used to know.” – Ian Anderson